I’m feeling like such a mega Grinch this year (or perhaps I’m more of a Scrooge?).
Normally, I am all over Christmas. It usually kills me to wait until after Thanksgiving dinner to start the Christmas music and pulls out the decorations (but those are the rules up in here). This year I have done absolutely no decorating and I’ve listened to very little Christmas music. I haven’t even bought my yearly Christmas CD (I get one new Christmas CD a year).
I realized I was really in trouble when a friend invited me to her daughter’s gift wrapping fundraiser. It’s kind of impossible to pay someone to wrap gifts you haven’t even thought about buying yet. Umm, I’m a bad person, but I don’t want to spend money on buying people stuff. I can’t really afford it. Especially with both of our workplaces sucking us dry on various gift exchanges.
I know, I know, Christmas is all about giving, but is it really giving generously if I’m being bullied in to it? I just feel like my money could be better spent on stuff like charities. Better yet, how about we make giving my time an option? Why does it always have to be stuff that’ll get thrown in a corner while I worry about paying our bills?
Moving on, I’m giving myself this year to just not get in to it. I’m working a lot, my husband isn’t around, and I’m pregnant and exhausted. Next year, though, I will get my Christmas on in our house (if we ever find one). I will sew stockings, make an advent calendar, put up the tree, and light the menorah (umm, did I mention we celebrate Chrismukkah up in here?). Heck, I’ll even bake or something for my husband’s office.
Meanwhile, Kara brought up an interesting point about Santa last week, which led to someone asking about our plans. Honestly, the cheap (very cheap) Hebrew in me feels like Santa is expensive. I have to buy gifts from that fat jerk and from us. But I remember being a little kid and exploding out of bed to see what he brought (my sister had to be physically restrained to keep her from waking everyone up at 4 AM). I also remember the crushing disappointment when I caught my dad as the tooth fairy (sorry dude, none of us had the heart to tell you). The other question is does Santa take away from what Christmas is really supposed to be about?
These are not answers I have. I guess we don’t really have to decide for another 2ish years (a 7 month old won’t notice if Santa doesn’t come. I was figuring she’d love some nice cardboard boxes next Christmas). Oh, and just so I don’t get called a bad mother, I would never begrudge my child anything, but I don’t know that she needs an explosion of new toys every Christmas. She’ll get plenty and she has 6 grandparents to spoil her. So in summation, I don’t know yet. We’ll get to Santa when we get there.
Oh, but Elf on the Shelf is totally out. That crap is creepy. And a little controlling.
So, anyone else not feeling it? What do you do to get in to the holiday spirit? Does anyone else find the elf thing a little creepy? I should mention I hate puppets and dolls, so this probably plays right in to that. Anyone else not start shopping yet? On a scale of one to boned, I think I’m mega screwed.